A
depressing day, a pain-filled day, a hot day, a disappointing day.
We began
our day with breakfast in the guesthouse, and then set off to bestride the
surrounding mountains. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to keep up. Even
before I got out of bed I could feel my heart pulsing in my back and soreness
behind my left foot. What brittle part of this elderly body would betray me?
Would my heart give out? But at least it was cool when we began.
I glanced
up to the jagged, bald peaks around us.
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The mountain we were about to climb. |
“Could we really be going up there?” I thought to
myself.
We hadn’t
gone more than 300 meters when our Albanian couple dropped out. I couldn’t
understand what they said to Enric, our guide, but their body language gave
hints that they weren’t happy.
“This is
too much for us,” is the gist of what I think they said. Enric made a quick
phone call and soon the couple were headed back to our first-night’s lodgings.
They would be getting a lift to the next rest stop. The remaining group of six
would be continuing our trek.
One part of
that decision affected me directly. I had counted on the Albanians, who I knew
were the least fit of the group, to slow us down so that my failings wouldn’t
be so obvious. Now I was the weak
link. No telling what that might mean.
The other
part of my angst was the fact that I felt so isolated. Remaining in our group
were a father and son from Italy and two young Australians who had hit it off
seamlessly. As the only two real English speakers they were my only possible conversation
partners, but it looked like they were so into each other that I would be a
relative exile.
The
guesthouse sat at about 1,000 meters above sea level. The mountains looked to
be about 3,000 meters. How much of the difference would we make up with our
mountaineering? I didn’t know and Enric wasn’t saying.
On we
marched. I tried mightily to keep pace with Enric at first, and then it became
a matter of simply maintaining contact with the group. I didn’t find it easy.
Enric was a different kind of leader than the ones I encountered in Laos and
Guatemala and elsewhere. He had little interest in chatting up our group
members or doing much of anything to build comradery amongst us. He set his
nose upward and strode briskly in that direction. Every 20 or 25 minutes he’d
glance back.
For the
first hour I kept pace with the others. Giovanni, the dad of the Italian pair,
or Francesco, his son, kept behind me to monitor whether I was having any
difficulty. Giovanni testified that he spent every Sunday trekking through the
Italian Alps, so he was clearly ready for anything Enric was likely to throw at
us. His son was a triathlete—‘nuf said.
Robert and
Natali, the two Australians, took the lead behind Enric. As youngsters they had
the toughness to handle any climb.
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Resting at 1,700 meters. |
The
question was whether I could keep up.
The first
hour was a riverbed full of sharp stones but the slope was modest and I had no
trouble with it. But then we entered a pine forest. The slope was steep. There
was blessed shade but my body took much punishment.
My
breathing became labored, my legs felt like two lead anchors that had to be
dragged forward. I wanted badly to be a part of the group’s journey but my body
wasn’t feeling the same way. We stopped for breaks periodically and that saved
me but the pace that Enric was setting was daunting. We walked for about an
hour in the shade but then reached the tree line. Suddenly we were in full sun,
which added one more agony to my suffering. We rested at 1,700 meters. The peak
of Mount Rosit was to our right. Enric announced that we’d climb for about one
more hour, and then eat lunch (which we’d brought along). My back was sore, my
feet were heavy, the air was cool, which helped, but I had doubts about my
ability to make that last hour.
Then
Francesco, the triathlete, decided to retreat. He parted ways with us and
headed down the mountain. There were four of us left plus Enric.
I told
Enric I didn’t know if I could make it all the way. He’d told us that the
return route was simply a doubling back on our upward path so I knew I could
stop and wait for the fit ones to crest the mountain and return to pick me up,
if that was necessary. But I really wanted to make it to the top. I really wanted to eat lunch with the
group. I’d felt so alone, so much an outsider on this climb that I passionately
wanted that vindication of a shared lunch.
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The fit ones disappearing. They made it to over 2, 000 meters. |
But it
wasn’t to be. The four fit folk quickly advanced ahead of me. Soon they were
hundreds of yards further up the path. And my head began to spin. I sat down,
hoping that a brief rest would help me reclaim my equilibrium, but it didn’t
work. As soon as I stood up my whole body felt like I’d just gotten off one of
those carnival rides that spins you round and round till you don’t know how to
remain erect.
I slumped
down, defeated. I lay out for about twenty minutes (the group had long
disappeared over the next rise) then sat up and ate my lunch. I made it, by my
rough estimate, to 1,800 meters, but the pain of my failure was all I cared
about.
Dejectedly
I began the long, slow descent, following the path I recently trod upward. My
back pain increased and my legs began to lose their turgor. Natali had found me
a walking stick, which saved me from crashing to the ground repeatedly. I
dreaded the thought of having the fit folks overtake me and leave me, once
again, behind.
I made it
reasonably far down the mountain before Enric and his crew caught up. We took a
long rest under a nearby tree, long enough for my legs to recover most of their
former glory. It took us about another hour to finally return to the elevation
from which we’d originally ascended. But there was one more bit of pain
awaiting me.
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The view from 1,800 m. This is as far as I got. |
There was
one more segment of our journey, a 20-30 minute flat walk to our new
guesthouse. It was hot. Our path was across a dry riverbed filled with stones.
I quickly fell behind the other five (Francesco had rejoined us). All my
frustrations of the day came to the fore. Enric and the fit group were 200
meters ahead of me, oblivious to my feelings of isolation and abandonment. Why
couldn’t they slow down to include me in their journey? I didn’t understand.
And I held Enric mostly responsible.
So when
they came to a rest point I asked him:
“Do we need
to be at the guesthouse at any specific time?” I asked.
“No,” he
replied.
“Then, do
you think you could slow down a little and let me be a part of your group?”
Behind his
sunglasses I could “see” Enric glaring at me.
“You think
I’m going too fast?” he asked with a sharp edge to his voice.
“All I can
say is your going faster than I can walk,” I replied.
“Sir, I
wish you’d told me this before. I like to know these things.”
“What did
you think when you saw me so far behind?” I queried testily.
Now I’d
angered the guide. Would he ban me from the next day’s hike? Would he speed up
his pace tomorrow to humiliate me? Did the other group members hear my
complaint? Would they ostracize me?
I didn’t
know the answers to any of these questions. And I didn’t know if I was
physically capable of doing tomorrow’s climb, anyway.
What should
I do on Monday? Quit the tour? Try to skip one day’s climb? Try to join the
climb as if nothing had happened? I didn’t know.
And should
I explain to the other group members my sense of exile?
All good
questions.